I Want My Long Dreams Become True!

How many years have gone?

How many months have blown?

How many days have spurt out?

How many times have wandered away? 

I am a person with a bunch of dreams. Yeah I am. I think everybody has at least a dream that he/she really wants to reach. People usually eagerly to make new plenty of plan when new year comes. They call it something like resolution. As a dreamer, I do have some new plans but it doesn't depend only when new year comes or any special day. I know probably they who have the new resolution in the new year think that the time is very appropriate for starting to work on those plans, but for me, it depends on my mood. It sounds little bit weird. Through this note, I am going to tell you about my three biggest dream. The first one is to publish my novel. I have been writing since I started to enter high school. I write a lot of short stories, poems, and novella. Now, I am working on my 'biggest project', to finish my first novel. There is a lot of problem, challenge, and anything that troubling around me when I am working on it, but I have to finish it somehow. My other dream is to study aboard. Then, the last is, I really really want to set up a restaurant. 

Actually, my biggest biggest plan is to keep my parents proud of me, and i am still working hard on it.

Dove Commercial: 'You are more beautiful than you think.'

Everybody has different perception and opinion. Of course!

People have their own thought about their own appearance, but did you ever think about somebody else’s opinion about how does other look? There is a simple research of knowing how women think about their appearance then it is going to be compared with other’s opinion.

There is a sketcher who sketches some women’s appearance one by one, without seeing them, only by the women’s explanation about what they think they might look.  Then, the sketcher starts to sketch the same women but based on other women’s opinion who has met them before.

The sketcher puts the different sketches of the same woman side by side so the women can compare those coupled sketches. The one which based on other’s opinion shows that they look more beautiful than how they look in the sketch which based on what they think about their own appearance. It’s clear that in this way, ‘you are more beautiful than you think’ works. 

Forest Gump

There was a little boy who wore a pair of leg braces to help him walk. He walked in a forest with one of his girl friends. All of sudden, some of other little boys approached him as threw some rocks towards him. He dropped down to the ground but he got up. The boys still kept throwing rocks so with all his braveness, he ran as fast as he could. The boys used their bicycle to run after him. The unbelievable case was the boy who wore the leg braces could run fast and left the boys who used bicycle far away behind. He ran faster and faster through the forest so he broke his own leg braces. The little pieces of his leg braces which spread on the ground caused the wheels of their bicycle broken. They stopped. He ran far away from them until they couldn't find him anymore.

The moral value that we can point out is if we believe in ourselves that we can do even we think we can't. Nothing is impossible. We won't never know if we never try. 

Embarrassing Moment in Solo

My grandmother lives in Solo. That’s one of the most silent city in middle java I assume so. That’s I like Solo very much. The air is way fresh than where I live now, Sidoarjo. I and my family often go there when holiday or when there’s a family gathering or something.

And once, about 3 years ago when I visited my grandmother in Solo, there was an embarrassing situation. In an evening I went to buy some snacks like ‘gorengan’. I mentioned some kind of gorengan and the last I mentioned ote-ote then I realized the seller looked at me and laughed slightly. I was afraid to ask why she laughed and I asked her to add some more ote ote then she laughed more. I was confused but still afraid to ask why. When I got to my grandmother’s house I hurriedly tell to one of my cousin. She burst into laughter. I just blinked and forced her to tell me why. She told me that Ote-ote means nude in Solo. Oh My God. 

Ask I Memnu (Forbidden Love) - The Most Unpredictable Story Ever!

I am a romantic story lover. I have read a lot of romantic novel and also I have seen a lot of romantic movies and series around the world. I sometimes write short story or Novella that mostly is about romantic. I used to watch Telenovella since I was a little child and was drowning like crazy about the story even I didn’t really understand about those adult’s matter. I addicted to those series though.

When I was in high school, one of my friend told me that one of the television channel in my country showed a Turkey series titled Ask I Memnu (Forbidden Love). Its title caught me once I heard it and remind me about Telenovella so I was getting excited and of course I watched that but unfortunately the channel only showed the series until 7 episodes then they cut it and never showed it anymore. Thank God, I could watch it through Youtube even it has English subtitle only in 3 first episodes. I was still so excited even the other 76 episodes I watch without read any subtitle and I was like reading and feel the story from the character’s movement. I used to learn Turkish a bit though hehe.

You know what? I have never seen a romantic series that had a heart-broken story like this. Never before! I cried a lot in the end of the series. But for the first time I fell in love with Kivanc Tatlitug who played the most charming Casanova coward. His act was perfect there. Actually all of the actors and actresses were playing their role perfectly.

Let’s talk about the story…

It begins around Ziyagil and Yöreoğlu families. Adnan Ziyagil, one of the richest and busiest man in Turkey, who lives with his teenage daughter Nihal (Hazal Kaya) and 11 year old son Bulent (Batuhan Karacakaya). He hasn’t been marrying for 12 years since his wife passed away. Behlul (Kivanc Tatlitug) is Adnan’s nephew who lives with him since his parents died in a car accident. Behlul and Nihal used to play together and Behlul always gets close to Nihal. When Behlul graduated from high school, he was sent to Paris by Adnan to study there and came back to help Adnan run his company.

Firdevs  Yöreoğlu is a kind of socialite lady in Turkey, has two beautiful daughters, Peyker (the elder) and Bihter  (Beren Saat). Behlul grows as a womanizer, dating a lot of women and breaks their heart include Peyker when he was in Paris, but they broke up because Behlul cheated on her. Not so long after broke up with Behlul, Peyker is getting married with Nihat Onal and lives happily with him.

Bihter doesn’t like Behlul in case of breaking her sister’s heart. Either she doesn’t or even hates her mom as she was very sad about her father’s untimely death because of heart attack as she and her father caught Firdevs  with another man in their farm house. Bihter always visits her father’s grave. Once she met Adnan when he was visiting his wife’s grave that opportunely is located near Bihter’s father’s grave. Day by day they often meet each other there, talk the fall in love with each other. Adnan purposed to Marry Bihter after all. He knows exactly what Nihal will react about it but after 12 years being a widower yet that’s the time he falls in love with a woman. With Bihter. Firdevs eyes Adnan because of he’s rich but when hearing her younger daughter want to marry Adnan she is surprised but doesn’t know what to do.

After facing some problems they finally get married and even Nihal doesn’t really like Bihter because she gets married with her father and doesn’t want her mother’s place in her dad’s heart replaced by other women include Bihter, day by day she can adapt with the situation in their house. Firdevs moves to Adnan house and lives there. For some reason Behlul who dislikes Bihter so much think that Bihter marries her uncle only for money based on the thought that Bihter is way too young to marry Adnan.

Nihal struggles to just stop being so cold to Bihter as Bihter tries to show that she marries her father because she loves him. Nothing more.

One day when Behlul is extremely got a headache and a slight fever and there is no one but Bihter at home, Bihter takes care of him and since that moment, the feelings toward Bihter starts to grow up in Behlul’s heart. Since that time they become friends but he realizes that she is his aunt and tries to push away the feeling.

Living in the same house for Bihter and Behlul is not a good way to live by the way, because Bihter, unconditionally falls in love with Behlul and that makes Behlul in a big trouble. It is harder to control his feeling because of Bihter’s feel the same to him. When Bihter is pregnant, she decides to abort the child as she thinks that’s a good time which makes Adnan extremely upset. Behlül who isn’t much happy about the baby news becomes relieved hearing that she has aborted the child. He tells her that he is happy she is not pregnant anymore. This makes Bihter little off but she doesn’t say anything. Hearing about the abortion, Adnan tries to take some time off from Bihter and plans a business trip which makes Bihter really upset as she thinks she will lose Adnan forever.

Behlül consoles her and finally accepts that she really loves him and doesn’t marry Adnan for money. After this realization, Behlül who already is in a deep love with Bihter is extremely confused and doesn’t know how to control his feelings for her knowing that what he is doing is extremely wrong.

(I admit that this is the one of my favorite scene ever.) One day he sneaks into Bihter’s room to smell her scent through her perfume and on realizing that what he is thinking doing is totally wrong and next day he decides to propose his girlfriend Elif, this announcement makes Bihter sad and in a evening when everyone is out she sneaks into Behlul’s room to smell his scent through his perfume just like the way Behlul did. At time suddenly when she hears someone coming and walks up through stairs who are Nihal Behlul and Bulent. Fortunately Nihal and Bulent do not realize it is Bihter walking out Behlul’s room. But Behlül sees the drops of his perfume on floor and realize that it was Bihter in his room.

One day Behlül finds Bihter alone in the back of the house selecting painting and kisses her, Bihter slaps him and runs off to home. She realizes that she cannot tell about this to Adnan as part of her is also responsible for that. She forces Adnan that Behlül and Elif should get proper engaged and married.  Behlül unwontedly gets engaged to Elif, but confesses his love to Bihter. Bihter initially refuses Behlül completely but eventually realizes that even she cannot live a day without seeing him around.

This leads to a Forbidden Love between Bihter and Behlül, Bihter know that she is wrong and tells Behlül to run away with him to USA. At the airport Behlül backs off leaving Bihter. Heartbrokenly she returns home to Adnan and breaks off with Behlül.  She tells him that he is Coward and self- centered man who only thinks about himself. Behlül still tries to beg apologize to Bihter but she doesn’t want to give him a chance.

One day on business trip Behlül calls Bihter, and Bihter tells him to stop calling her as she hates him. This makes Behlül upset and gets into the chopper in foggy weather in Turkey. His chopper gets missing and everyone thinks that he is endanger which makes Bihter really upset and on receiving his call that he is alive and well. She realizes how deeply she still loves him and about his arrival then afterward their secret meetings start again.  Mean while, Adnan’s daughter who is extremely sensitive is in love with Behlül but can never confess to anyone except her governess Ms. Deniz. And Adnan’s family driver Bashir, Nihal’s childhood friend is in love with her but knows it’s impossible to even dream about it. Ms. Deniz who loves Adnan thinks one day she will marry Adnan knows about Nihal’s love for Behlül and Bashir’s love for Nihal. As Bihter and Behlül tries to meet in secret their meetings make Ms. Deniz suspicious of their behavior but she can never speak out loud as it’s unacceptable and unimaginable that Behlül dates his uncle’s wife.

One night Bihter and Behlul’s failed plan to finally make proper love to each other in a hotel room leaves them sad as they both know what they do is terribly wrong. But that night when Behlül returns, Bihter knows she cannot wait anymore and hints Behlül to come after her in the glass house at the back garden of the house. But there is something falls down on the floor and make a noise sound and surprised both of them. Bihter and Behlül runs to the different way out from the garden and try to assess who was peeking them but they think it was a cat or Bihter’s mother Ms. Firdevs who now is always suspicious and curious of their affection for each other.

Behlul has broken off with Elif. The day which starts so good for Bihter ends on a nightmare, when Adnan in drunken state rapes Bihter, she is sadden and locks her in the washroom. Adnan is upset on what he did leave the room. Bihter packs her things and leaves the house she goes to Behlül at the stone house in the middle of the night. Saying that she has left everything behind and will never return to that.    

On hearing what happened to Bihter, Behlül starts to think that maybe what they been doing went too far, though Bihter wants him to stand up for her and just leave country with her. Behlül tries to stop her and ask for some time. One day when Nihal finds Behlul’s stonehouse, Behlül takes her back to home and promise Bihter that he will return tonight.

Bihter sad and miserable thinks about what his mother has done to her father and what she has done to her husband drinks and waits for Behlül but he caught up with Elif’s suicide attempt. Bihter tells Behlül that even if he doesn’t want to stand up for her, she will just tell Adnan everything and leave; she cannot do this to that man anymore. Drunken Bihter on way to Adnan’s sister’s farm house gets into almost fatal accident.

Behlül who is on phone with her gets ballistic and crazy, he cries but when he reaches hospital he sees his uncle’s car there and returns home. His cowardice again takes him over. Next day in hospital when comes and visits with all family, he tells Bihter how much broken he was after hearing her screams and thought she is dead. Bihter even in hospital refuse to go back and tries to tell Adnan but Behlül stops her. This AGAIN breaks Bihter’s heart, sick Bihter comes to Behlül room on return from hospital telling him to make a decision and stand up with her. She tells him that it’s all over now and she doesn’t want to hear from him again.

Meanwhile, Ms. Firdevs is sure that Behlül is the reason Bihter wants to leave Adnan and all this wealth. She starts training on Nihal and tells her that Behlül also loves her and they both should get married.  Behlül again tries to pursue Bihter but Bihter knows that he will always be this coward lover. Still she tries to give him another chance and goes to stone house, where she finds another woman in his bed. She returns in shock and tears; Behlül tries to stop her and tells her that she rejected him that’s why he was angry.

She comes back home goes to Behlül’s room and cries over her situation who he has broken her hearts so many times and yet she cannot break free from him. Behlül again tries to mend things with Bihter and when he goes to his room, he smells Bihter’s smell on his pillow who was there crying over his betrayal. This gives Behlül a hope that Bihter is still very much in love with him and will forgive him. He pursued Bihter over and over again and finally mends things with her. And now they know that they have something so powerful which cannot separate them for longer and it’s “Ask”, which controls them and put them back into each other’s arms.

The world comes upside down when Behlül’s fake love for Nihal increases and when Adnan asks Behlül if he loves Nihal, he says yes. This breaks Bihter’s heart and once they know that Bashir know about their secret to keep Bashir shut Behlül proposes to Nihal. This leaves Bihter off balance and now the real devastation for her starts.

First Bihter refuses to help Behlül and tells him that she knew this would happened but she realizes that she has fallen for a coward man and tries to help him. When her attempts to stop the engagement with Adnan and Nihal falls she comes to Behlül and tells him that still there is time we can run off. Behlül at time becomes aware of Nihal’s love for him and says she is so innocent and pure who has fallen for him. He cannot on any situation break her heart, Bihter tries to adjust this but she tells him that he doesn’t love Nihal and he is just trying to pity her, he should stand up for their love even if it’s a sin but it is LOVE. But Behlül warns Bihter to stay away from Nihal and don’t toy with her to get to him. She tells Behlül that “you’re actually hiding behind Nihal because it’s your way out and penance for the sins you committed” she says that “you love even your hairs more than Nihal”. Next day during their charity annual Ball, Behlül appears with Nihal with shaved head. This leaves Bihter devastated and she unwontedly hooks up with her husband Adnan just to make him jealous, which makes Behlül extremely furious and upset. Behlül shaves his head to prove on Bihter that he deeply care about Nihal and it’s not just to hide behind her but it also sort of proves on Bihter that Behlül NOT even for ONCE Stood up or Did something for Bihter (Buying a House counts a little but he didn’t do something to Prove on Bihter that he want to Save their relationship and will fight the world for it). Bihter tries to forget Behlül but watching her with Nihal breaks her every day from inside.

Bihter tells Behlül that he cannot see anyone else touching him and she cannot take this anymore. Even when Behlül is engaged to Nihal, he secretly makes love to Bihter and thinks that there will be a way to get out of it. The business rival to Adnan makes accusations that Behlül has an affair with Bihter puts Adnan off balance and for a while he started to believe that. Though the allegations turn wrong but this gives Bihter a chance to leave home and she tells Behlül to join him so both can leave the country.

Behlül who is confused over his uncle’s sadness as he thinks he is responsible that Bihter leaves him, still tries to leave but on Nihal’s attempt to stop him. She falls off stairs and breaks her arm. Behlül starts taking care of Nihal and ignoring Bihter, Bihter comes to Behlül and tells him that she is pregnant and she needs him. When Behlül comes to Bihter’s hotel room he hears her telling Adnan that he should not have allowed for Nihal and Behlül’s wedding. And she is not coming back. When Adnan leaves, Behlül comes to Bihter and where she tells him that if you are scared because of the baby then there is no baby.

When Behlül sees Bihter back home, he gets angry at her and takes Nihal on boat with her that night. Behlül makes love to Nihal and when she returns home next day, she tells Bihter all about it. Bihter who sees them kisses for the first time in corridor in state of shock listen to their love making night’s story. She tries to talk to Behlül but he locks his room to her. Devastated, broken and angry Bihter tries to tell Behlül that by using innocent Nihal to revenge on her he is not doing right. Behlül tells her that his future is bright and clear now, Bihter again watches Behlül kissing Nihal this leaves her angry and she comes back to room breaks her mirror. She cries and cannot believe that the person she loves the most and the person for whom she ruined her marriage and everything can do that to her. When her mother returns from Europe trip she breaks down in her arms, Adnan watches her but cannot understand the reason. That night Bihter tries to talk to Behlül in winery room but he pushes so hard on realizing that Nihal is coming to the room that hurt and broken hearted Bihter decide to abort their love child.

Next morning Behlül asks everyone about Bihter who is nowhere to be found at the house,” this proves that Behlül still very much care about Bihter but tries to hurt her so he can make Nihal happy as penance to the stabbing in the back of Adnan who not only gave an orphan child a home but considered him as his son.” Anyways I cannot forget the grin on his face when he receives the new luxury boat from Adnan as wedding gifts, and world tour on luxury cruise. This proves that whether Behlül admit it or not, Bihter was right he can never leave that much money and luxurious lifestyle. On the night of the abortion, and her mother’s engagement, Bihter finally confesses to her mother about her affair with Behlül and tells her to stop that wedding, she breaks down in tears and begs her to stop this wedding as she is dying and cannot see him getting wed to Nihal. Her mother promises her that she will stop the wedding but she has to promise that she will get rid of Behlül. Bihter promises at that time, after that Bihter and her mother tries to break the wedding but failed miserably. On one occasion when Bihter fights with Adnan upon knowing that the Adnan has hidden guards on her, Behlül calls her that night and Bihter rightfully tells her that “What he fault now that you’re getting married to Nihal, and left her all alone. For the sin, which they both should have been punished only she is getting punished as now he is going to start his new life with Nihal”.

Next day while jogging in the forest at the back of the house, when Behlül and Bihter cross paths she just asks him that doesn’t he miss her at all or doesn’t he loves her at all now. Behlül tries to hide his love but suddenly starts kissing Bihter and tells her that he missed her immensely. Bihter tells Behlül that we still got time; we can have all this if you just leave Nihal. Bihter runs back to house and her mother and Nihal suspects that something happens between them. Nihal stupidly gets convinced by Behlül but Ms. Frives tells Bihter that she was just helping her so she can get rid of Behlül as well but clearly she isn’t so she won’t help her anymore. Bihter after getting kissed by Behlül in forest thinks that they are back together and now this wedding will not happen. She dress up very happily and feels like on seventh sky but Behlül thinks that kissing Bihter in the forest was a mistake so he and Nihal propose that when they’ll go for honeymoon to USA. They will take admission in university up there so they are not planning to come home anytime soon. At least in five years they will visit time to time.

This leave Bihter in devastation Again, next morning Nihal tells her that she is planning a surprise B’day party for Behlül in which Bihter tells her that she will help. Adnan is going out of town, so Bihter starts texting, calling Behlül that he should meet her only Once tonight as Adnan is going abroad for one last time. Behlül refuses to meet her but eventually goes to a hotel for which Bihter had texted that she will be waiting. When Behlül comes out of the lift thinking that he is coming to spend a night with Bihter gets shocked when Bihter comes and screams “Behlül Surprise” and all lights turns on and all people including Nihal and Adnan are there for his surprise Birthday. This defiantly shocks Behlül and Bihter happy for a while as she was trying to prove to Behlül that he still mentally and physically deeply in love with Bihter otherwise he would not have come here” she tells Behlül that” upon finding that it was a surprise B’day all she saw on his face that he cannot be alone with Bihter tonight’ (Which is true but Behlül wouldn’t accept it) . Behlül tells Bihter that he came here so she should not be more humiliated but (for us there is a moment when Behlül steps out of his car and then again goes in and put a perfume on his neck is a CLEAR indication that he came here to make love to Bihter one last time as he cannot resist her) Bihter tries to act cool and says she is now for sure that this wedding will not happen on which Behlül calls her “SICK” (it breaks my heart). Bihter on verge of tears again tries to act cool and Behlül goes to Nihal and start dancing with her but still looking at Bihter (as he cannot take his eyes off her”).

After that Bihter again alone, dying inside trying and finding a way to stop this wedding but she doesn’t have anything now as the man she could have relied on doesn’t he talks to her anymore. Till the end, Bihter plans their escape as she knows that Behlül deeply loves her and cannot live without her but is not accepting the fact because he thinks Nihal will die if he leaves her. She tries to stick for her selfish coward lover, trying to understand that he is coward and needs a hand. BUT then the day comes when she also losts it, before wedding day Behlül meets her in the forest and thinking that Behlül called her so they can run off. She brings her ticketing details but as expected Behlül tells her that their Love was a mistake and we cannot hurt so many people. She should just forget him. Behlül apologies to Bihter and tells her that he knows he hurt her a lot but he wants her to stop and don’t ruin this wedding. Bihter tells Behlül that she was a fool; she always thought that in the end their love will conquer but she forgot that you’re a selfish man. She torn apart all the tickets and leaves him devastatingly. Behlül cries and then gets into his car. Mean while Ms. Deniz watched them in the forest, she tries to convince Bashir to tell her the truth. On Behlul’s Bechlor’s night Adnan tells Bihter that they should get divorce after their marriage as he doesn’t think we both are happy. This gives Bihter a hope and she calls Behlül and tells her that Adnan is divorcing her and even if he hasn’t decided yet she can wait for him to leave Nihal and returned to her. Behlül tells her that he will never leave Nihal but Bihter gives him a night to think about it.

Next morning Bihter watched Nihal getting her dress to the car and getting set for the wedding, she calls and texts Behlül but he doesn’t call her back. Heartbroken Bihter tells her mother that today she will tell everything to Adnan and then she will leave this place for ever. Ms. Frives who doesn’t want Bihter to leave Millions of money for a Casanova lover calls Behlül to come and stop her. Meanwhile, Mademoiselle tells Adnan that Behlül is having an affair with someone and he should ask Bashir about it. When Adnan is coming to Bashir who is on death bed, Bihter happily calls Behlül on seeing his 11 missed calls thinking that he left Nihal and finally coming for her. But Behlül tells her that she should not tell uncle anything and don’t ruin everything. Bihter heartbrokenly says “Alright” and just know what she has to do now as the man whom she gave millions of chances still only care about himself. On one side we see Adnan going to Bashir, where he tells him that he saw Behlül with Mrs. Bihter in glass house. On the other side Behlül enters Bihter’s room and she locks the room, Bihter hold gun to her chest and tells Behlül “that you’re leaving me because you cannot leave Nihal, she asks him “Why Me”. Meanwhile Adnan is trying to break the door, and Nihal is running to their room on the stairs. Bihter asks Behlül” does he really think he can live without her, as this door will only open once she is dead”. If you say yes you can live without me, so Let me Go, Let your Bihter Go”. Behlül cowardly tries to get the gun out of her hand but suddenly Adnan breaks into the room ‘ and tells Behlül” that But you were MY SON”. Bihter looks at Behlül who ashamedly sinks his head down realizes that he will never stand up for her and their LOVE in life shoots herself’. Bihter dies and it finally awakens Behlül that what he has lost suddenly.

After her death, Behlül visits her grave, asking for forgiveness over his cowardice. Behlül tells Bihter “Seni Coke means I Love but couldn’t complete the sentence as he knows it’s too late” He admits that he always loved her and that he is her murderer and of everyone else, nothing would have ended this way if he wasn’t the coward man that he was, and that it is his punishment that he will have to live with this guilt forever. Behlül leaves Ziyagil family. Firdevs goes into shock over her daughter’s death and ends up being paralyzed. She blames herself for snatching her daughter’s love from her which resulted in her death. Adnan moves into a new house with his children, Mademoiselle and the servants (Suleyman, Shayesta, Nesrin, and Cemile) while Nihal is on the path of recovery after Behlul’s betrayal.

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The purpose of mentioning the whole tragic story was just to give you guys an idea who much this woman Bihter has suffered on the name of love. I might have seen several movies and shows but have not seen a woman so much in pain as her. From beginning she is grieving for her father’s sudden death which leads to her marriage to an old man and then a Forbidden Love affair with coward man who not for once stood up with her. Every time I was the ending, or Behul’s cruel behavior towards Bihter I wish it didn’t happen or there must be a way to change it, even if it’s just a TV show its more real than anything I have ever seen. I have seen Behlül and Bihter’s scenes several times again and again. And I’m still unable to understand how could a man who loved a man so much leaves her in so much pain and devastation.

Beren Saat’s performance as Bihter has outdone all performances ever done by any actress in TV or cellulite history. As Bihter, her expressions changes every other minutes and sometimes in seconds. She is happy outside and in extreme pain inside which is visible in her eyes the entire time. Even when she tries to fight her mother to marry an old man or when unwontedly she falls for her husband’s nephew.  I’ve never seen a woman more in pain then her, she fall for a coward man who disappointed her on every occasion. She tries to break free of his charisma but falls right underneath it again and again. Just thinking about Bihter’s heart break brings tears in my eyes. Conventionally we may are suppose to hate a woman who cheats on her husband with his Son like nephew but we can’t. We see her struggling on every step and she tries to fight all odds against her. Even knowing that the man she loves isn’t going to stand behind her. There are thousand times I think that she should not have committed suicide for this coward man but honestly there was no other way for her. She was in pain, a pain which was eating her soul and heart and the only way to put him through that pain was to make him finally realize that he even can’t live without her.

It won’t be wrong to say that Kivanc Tatlitug is one of the world most beautiful man alive. And his casting as Casanova lover Behlül is perfect. His performance is nothing but spectacular, first as Casanova lover, then as man on fire falling for his young aunt, then turning into this obsessive lover to eventually selfish lover and in the end to heartbroken for life lover is exceptional. We can’t ignore his charisma, expressions and superb performance.  How fit his about his face that Kivanc did as Behlul in the show. I really have never found a role like his. This one is perfect.

The chemistry between Kivanc Tatlitug and Beren Saat is magical, at least I have never seen chemistry like that ever in TV shows it’s not possible. Every day the moment they see each other there is this fire and unspeakable magic between them. Even when we see Bihter and Behlül hating each other in the start or when they feel attracted to each other and when they fall in love with each other and in the end when they fight. There are a still magical expressions, eyes and body languages which is rare and uncommon between two people. To understand how powerful their chemistry and performance is you have to watch their every scene multiple times. I swear Bihter and Behlül’s every second’s expression is a million dollar; even they are not in a scene together and hear each other’s voice on phone or someone else even say their name. Their facial expression and eyes are not worthy. No wonder this show looks more than real than any reality show or documentary.

I’ve become obsessed with the show and its amazing cast, direction, writing, background music and production value. 

It’s just a story by the way! Fiction. Complicated. Full of sin I could say. And I can point out that this story is out of mind and kinda a a bit stupid. 

Here are some of the scenes..

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Makkah (Mecca)

Makkah is one of the greatest city in Saudi Arabia. A dream land of every Muslim all over the world. The place where Prophet Muhammad SAW was born and lived. It’s very beautiful and natural unique city. It also has some modern places and building such as the greatest and largest mosque Masjidil Haram, The Muslim’s praying center Ka’bah (which has been renovated since the day Ibrahim As and Ismail As built it), and Abraj Al-Bait Tower (Mecca Royal hotel Clock Tower).  Every year during Hajj time millions people from all of the world go there.

Mekka is known as a historical city with a lot of historical places like Hira’ Cave, where Rasulullah received the first five Verse of Alqur’an through the Angle Jebreel. Hira’ is located on Jabal Nur Mountain in the Tihamah Region.

Nova's Dream House

I really want to live in my own house which I can design it by myself. I want a not really big house and not really small house either. A cozy one with a small garden in front of the house with full of flowers and other beautiful plants. I don’t think that it needs a gate because the area where I want to build is very safe and it only has one floor. It has a wooden doorway and when we enter the house through it, we can meet a cozy living room with blue sky sofa and a table glass.

Let’s talk about the bedroom. I want to design my own bed room with a medium size of bed and a big pillow and a big bolster and also a lot of sesame street’s dolls and a lot of posters of my idol. I also put a cozy couch to just lay on there and watching TV because I also put a home theater there.

Next to my room is a simple library which contains my book collections, a desk and a spinning chair where I can spend my free time writing there.

I want to make a mini bar in my kitchen with about 6 stools and a medium unique dining table. The fridge is located in the corner of the kitchen and of course contains a lot of food.

The bathroom has a cozy bathtub, washbasin and also a shower. I want to design the wall with full of purple porcelain.

And the last one is I want to make a back yard that I can use for something like BBQ party.  I want to put some pets freely there like rabbit.